I need some strength

Dear Allah please give me some strength to do a blog revamped. A touch of new color here and there mighttt sparks some fire in my mood to write again. I need your help as always cause man this girl is always like this.

Too many past attachment here that I don't like to looked at. That dims my mood of writing. I don't know (angkat bahu, muka pasrah). Its not like an excuse or anything but its just to write something, it gotta flows like nature but 'it doesn't' get to me this past few months. 9 months to be precise. Tak tahu mana perginya. 

I've got so many post draft that I hesitate on posting for no reason. Simply just a 'naaahhh' and there it goes. stuck in the draft folder. Its like I don't want people to know what's going on with my life. Then this got to me, "was it really people? or you have some particulars?" lol why are you so difficult. Get ur guts together and just go, do 'you'. 

Remember you? Uh-hum that free spirit girl? That awe some people once in a while. You who love to smiles and inspires? which can sometimes be as clumsy as hey, but yet still stood fine during those final hardcore decision of her life? Yeah I'm talking about you. 

Remember how you loves to do things on your own that even when you do it you enlightens the whole field literally (whisper whisper // ppl are gonna think i'm perasan) but atleast thats how I used to felt. I do love myself. Ya allah zaf. You was amazing back then doing amazing things (Excuse me self? Where have you been to? Tak jumpa jalan balik rumah is it?)

I just miss that long gone vibes. Which I hope would return very very soon. Gotta make this happen though. Peduli lah all those past haywire chaotic occurrences. who care anymore (detached it) just budge the thought like it doesn't even matter. Its 2017 for god sake, be present. Look alive too. May god blessings will always be with you. amin.

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